May 11, 2009

I sent this to many of you in an email, but in case you didn't get that, we found out today that it will be another two weeks before we know the results of the SMA test on the baby. The clinic that did Michelle's amniocentesis called today and said that the lab doing the testing was doing a different kind of test than we originally thought--and this test takes longer. So whereas we thought we'd know by now, it will be two more weeks before we know.

I did have a revelation this afternoon. Waiting on the test results has in many ways hijacked us, as we pray for good news but worry about bad news. My revelation was not to let this wait control us. The worst that can happen (a positive SMA test) isn't life ending. If we have another child like Grace we'll be thrilled, and we'll be experts on raising a child with severe physical disabilities. So Michelle and I have resolved to try to live without spending every waking minute stressing about getting that call.